Tie

I'm really tired lately.
I think I'm going to take some time off from the computer.
Probably about a week or so to catch up on my previous sleep patterns.
I think that sounds good.
Talk to you all in a week, then.
Take care.

Ell Rant

I honestly don't know what to talk about anymore.
Right at the present moment, I can't even decipher my thoughts from one another.
So many things are racing through my head, it's ridiculous.

First of all:
I'm trying my hardest to get over AJ.
I know it's really lame, but nobody will let me feel what I want to feel anymore.
Yes: I still like AJ.
And yes: I will complain and write about it as much as I fucking want to.
If you don't like it, I hope you take kindly to fucking off.

But as I was saying,
I think for the most part it is working.
But I'm still jealous that he's never going to love me.
Whatever.

Secondly:
I never actually blamed Ashley for our friendship falling apart.
I hope she can get over her big ego and see that.
I said it was her job as a best friend to deal with changes.
I dealt with her when she decided to be a whiny bitch and sulk in her room all the time.
I dealt with her when she lost her sense of humour.
I dealt with her when she wanted to change.
All I wanted was for her to do the same with me.
Pardon my selfishness.
But it just goes to show,
that you don't actually know who your real friends are.
I thought Ashley would be there through everything.
But once it got hard, she flaked out.

P.S. I didn't ditch anybody.
It's not my fault that all she ever wanted to do was eat ice cream while watching The W Network in her room.
Grade eight was my year off from everybody.
I went to war with myself for so long and for so many reasons.
And if it's Ashley's turn this year: I'll accept that.
I just won't tolerate being a piss ant because the world didn't stop when she felt bad.
Life goes on.
Deal with it.


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To all of you retards who are making Ariel feel bad because of the Shivors/Nyangals/Nigatos: shut the hell up, please.
It's getting old.
Not to mention it's getting extremely annoying.
Especially when you only talk about her like she's a bad person.
And only introduce her to your friends because of the Shivors.
Jesus Christ.
I don't even know how to deal with that situation, because it's so stupid.
It's done.
The story of the Shivors no longer involves you.
It's no longer your business.
So she lied to you: who cares?
If all you're going to think of when you think about her is that, then you don't even deserve to be her friend.
It's ungrateful.
And you should actually be ashamed for acting in such a childish manner.
Grow up and actually take a look at what's in front of you.
Ariel is an amazing person, and if you're not decent enough to try and be friends with Ariel, and not the characters she made up, then you shouldn't even try to talk to her.
She's too good for that.

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I have more to rant about.
But it's actually something I'd rather not write online.

Start All Over

Why would I start over?
Because I simply can, that's why.